checklist for sindrom 'feeling-kehilangan'

Checklist setakat neh..

• Umah sewa lama da dikosong kn,,   

sigh,, tgk blk uma yg da kosong,, yg pena share suka duka,, bpisah ngan ketua uma,, fuhh.. dah la pindah dlm keadaan xsehat.. n xsempat jmpe pun ketua uma.. she help me a lot since the beginning i entered d house~

thanks to my dearest housemates, shima & ila yg byk tlg masa pindah~ kalo x,, xterpindah laaaa encik peti ais, encik washing machine, encik katil + tilam n beberapa mende yg len~

• Refinance my income

start bulan neh, nak kene refinance my income.. well, tindakan spontaneous on filling forms n tekan button submit make me blur jap~ kalo betol la.. further studies, part time sem depan.. mmg kene ikat macam2 neh~

How to find RM5,500 in every sem? xpe la, rezki ada kat mana2, yg penting, usaha~ ye x? yg pasti, start thn dpn.. mmg start la life yg lg challenging, jgn at d end.. da jd mcm hape lak, xjmpe2 mmber2, etc, hohohoho

• Wiwit dah kawen

Yup, yes she is, n she n her husband keep on updating their dating status in FB.. happy for them, although a little bit terasa sindrom 'feeling-kehilangan' menghantui sy~ not that im not happy for  them ya~ it's just me

n yes, i still in d mood 'fixing-my-feelings-back' =(

• Another fwenz pun da kawen

checklist lebey kurang sama mcm point atas neh~

last sunday, culik sapik, my adek, bring along my housemates.. travel to BP.. on d spot tgk address, on d spot carik umah~ was wondering gak, what m i doing? dah la ngah xsehat, jumaat got gastric terok, doctor pun da bising,, (sorry doc!) sabtu dah start demam selsema, pale da jam, mata da sakit, xilang balance, idong sakit, telinga, tekak pun ikut jam, itu ini, dak2 umah pun tnye byk kali, r u serius nk g BP in this condition?? wiwit bkn ada kat BP pun.. its just a wedding!

well, in dat condition, i dont know wat i think, tp alhamdullillah,, smpai gak kat uma pengantin, layan diri~ not very comfortable, ye la, xkenal sape pun seh.. ERK! blur2 jap

dah abeh makan, jam pun dah dekat 3pm, pengantin xsampai2, teringat2 si bedah ditinggalkn dlm kete, kepanasan.. kang mati lak si kecik tu.. sabar2

then bnyi kompang, pengantin tiba, pastu dak2 neh nk g tgk pengantin, follow je la, my adek kat my back.. after seeing him, (wife cantek n husband hensem), n timbul sindrom 'feeling-kehilangan', tros decide balik je la.. at least now i have nothing to regret.. 

 n yes, i still in d mood 'fixing-my-feelings-back'

• Dah ziarah ummi

balik je dr BP, terlintas kat ati, i should go ziarah ummi.. how is she.. how is ayah.. how is everybody.. smpai je kat umah ummi, they welcomed me sgt2 n of course terkejut gler, tetiba dtg, byk kali dorg ulang, da dekat 3bulan xtgk dorg, since raya aidilfitri, i just smiled jek.. well, still in d mood  'fixing-my-feelings-back' knnnn

layan kn cucu2 ummi - naimah & nuqman~ actives sungguh budak2 nuh, without anythings to think of~ da lama xtgk dak2 kecik.. dipendekkan cter,  naimah ikut me balik uma sewa baru~

hehe, wif me yg xbape sehat, dia ikut blk uma, layan kan kerenah, telatah, celoteh dia~ sok nye (isnin) tros sehat!! alhamdullillah~

• count down days on Amira nk berenti keje

another things to face.. count down day~

bersiap sedia berdepan dgn::: sindrom 'feeling-kehilangan' lagi~ sindrom lama xabeh, bertimpa2 sindrom baru.. sigh...

• crawling to sehat balik

bcoz of tekanan yg xabeh2 on this stupid mind.. my badan yg merana~ yelah, i dint say anything to anyone, go on with d flow~

thousand questions without answers~ xabeh pressure sindrom 'feeling-kehilangan', tmbah lagi pressure~ dgn work load~ dgn pindah uma~ dgn decision further studies~ bdn tros jam~ start ngan gastric biasa, pastu start muntah2, pastu tros demam selsema, etc~ giler aaaa, lembik btooolll

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sabtu malam, berjalan2 dgn housemates.. lawat pakcik khairi~ give them some cakes sbb bufday kak nida~ hehe, tp terkilan gak la,, spatutnye jumaat malam g lawat dorg.. sbb bufday kak nida kamis.. tp disebabkn muntah2, n doc da bising xjaga itu ini.. so.. plan tertunda.. cake pun da mcm hape.. =(

after lawat pakcik khairi, ktorg g Bazaar JB.. mula2 jln sama2 ngn dak2 neh.. last2.. i walked alone jek kat bazaar nuh.. lots of memory~ tertambah plak pressure sindrom 'feeling-kehilangan'.. sendiri cari nahas..

as i walked alone.. ada terjumpa booth ape tah.. dah lupa, tp tgk tarikh lahir laaa, he commented on my personallity~ n i m glad dat i make a decision to hear him.. now i know.. i do have my strength.. =)
at least.. dlm keadaan mylife huru hara..some stranger advices me on many things.. thanks ya Allah for hearing my thought.. =)

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Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were 

meant  to  be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help 

figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these 

people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very momentthat 

they will affect your life in some profound way.

And  sometimes  things  happen  to  you at the time that may seem horrible,

painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those 

obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. 

Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test 

limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road 

to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you 

experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned 

from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone 

hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have 

helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you 

open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love 

you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes 

to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, 

for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let 

yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up 

because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't 

believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and 

then go out and live it.